recent thoughts

I'm going to do a better job at keeping up with this blog starting now.
so here are a few things that have been on my mind recently:

- Bravo is the best channel on tv.
- Soccer is actually cool to watch on tv; it still isn't as exciting as football but it will do until football season
- Georgia O'Keefe is my favorite artist. You should look her up! Her flower paintings are amazing
- Harry Potter is the bomb.com!
- I wish it would stop raining everyday so i could read outside more often
- I hate cleaning
- I've realized that sometimes i have the maturity level of a 12 year old
- If i was actually good at science i would become a doctor
- i love to help people and i have no idea how i'm going to do that being a history major, which bothers me immensely
- Turkey is the newest country to be added to my list of places i must see
- I need to start taking more pictures
- I wish life wasn't so complicated and that money was not as important
- I think i'm gonna take up running as my new hobby; i would love to run a 5k someday
- I'm getting my cartilage pierced sometime this summer

lately

so apparently i fail at keeping up with this blog. It's crazy that it has been almost a month since i last updated! Tomorrow is my final in my Basic Design class :/ I'm actually really sad about the class ending.
The whole reason i got a blog, was so i could get all of my thoughts out. Lately it seems like my brain has been in overdrive, thought wise. So many things are happening and at the same time not happening.
This summer has been strange, not bad strange, just strange. I don't really know how to describe it. It seems like everything is changing way too fast. I usually like change, but just not right now. I'm going to be going through enough changes in the next few years, i just want everything to stay the same for now.
So i've found a new backup job plan for me; if working at the Smithsonian/being a historian/joining a political campaign/ saving the planet doesn't work out, i'm going to help protect great white sharks. You might think this sounds crazy, but since they are my favorite animal, i think it sounds awesome! There is this show called Expedition Great White, where they catch the sharks and bring them up on this deck, that they can lower and raise ,and they get all kinds of scientific information and tag them. So they are doing this with like a 18 ft. shark right there, like they could pet it if they wanted to! And then they let the shark go and monitor their travels! I've decided that i'm going to join them and save the sharks! If you don't believe me, then you must not understand my love for great white sharks! strange, i know.
so i know that whole thing about saving the sharks is extremely random, but i've realized that most of my blog posts have been somewhat emo and that this one is also kinda emo so i had to add something to hopefully cancel out some of the emoness(is that even a word?).

this week

this week i started my art class; it's at 8am, which means i have to get up at the ungodly hour of 6am Monday-Friday. I have a feeling i might become a coffee lover this month because of this class. I was extremely nervous about the class; i don't know why; i'm not usually someone who gets nervous about classes. I guess i thought i would be awful at it. But as it turns out, i'm not awful at it. My teacher(who is awesome btw) is constantly telling me that my art is awesome and that i'm so creative(he also tells all the other students that, but i still like to think that i'm awesome at it). I love my class! I'm the only one who is not an art major/minor and i can't help but wonder, why am i not an art minor? My minor is political science and i hate most of those classes; they can be super boring. Politics = boring most of the time (i'm sure you already knew that and are probably wondering why i am just now realizing this). Art= awesomeness and being creative. My parents think that art should just be a hobby and not something i should go to school for, but my mom also thinks that i'm never going to find a job with a history degree and when i graduate from school i'm going to realize she was right and go back to school to be a nurse. Luckily my dad is cool with me being a history major. Anyways i guess i'm just to take lots of art class as electives my senior year since it is too late to change my minor. I guess the main point of this post is just to let you know that i love my art class and instead it turned into a slight rant. On a happier note, i now have 4 iTunes gift cards, which means tons of new/awesome music so if you have any suggestions of music that i should look up, let me know!

growing up

it's crazy how times flies by; high school doesn't seem that long ago and same with freshman year of college. It's SO weird that I'm a senior in college. I went to the dentist a few days ago and the lady was asking me what year i was and when i said i was a senior, i paused for a second cause that sounded so bizarre. I talked about this with my friends before school ended so you would think i would be use to saying it but i just can't get over how strange it is. I have no idea what i want to do with life. I just makes lists of places i want to travel to but that will require having a job so i can have the money for that. All i know is that i would love to work in the Smithsonian Museum, or some place cool like that, or work on someone's political campaign, or open an art gallery. Own some cool place where people could come and show their art and maybe become somewhat famous.
Today is my birthday (yay!) and now I'm 21 (that sounds so old). It crazy that now I'm basically an adult. This is my last summer as a kid and be able to lay around and watch TV if i want to during the week and just kinda do whatever i want. Next summer i will(hopefully) be getting a grown up job and be living in an apartment paying bills and doing grownup things and be in the real world. Being in the real world seems scary. I'm definitely starting to feel that I'm ready to move out of my parents house but everything else still terrifies me.I know that I'm rambling and kinda repeating myself but this is my blog so it doesn't matter. I guess the main point of all this rambling is that the fact that I'm growing up is beginning to scare me and being a senior in college is gonna be an emotional ride.

ok so..

so i thought i was gonna keep up with this blog a lot better than i have apparently been doing.
I'm ready to get back to school and see everybody; this summer has been long enough. My birthday is Monday! I'm getting so old lol
I start my art class on Tuesday, it should be interesting!
That is all

Hello!

Hello blog world!

i'm not a great writer but i figured this might be a great way for me to get most of my thoughts out and maybe amuse a few people too lol

so the last couple of nights i have been having issues sleeping; this never happens i'm one of those people who goes to sleep fast and is like dead the rest of the night; so naturally since i can't sleep i start thinking. Recently i have been beginning to realize how i have changed( for the good) and that i am now starting to realize who i am and being completely fine with it.

Examples:

* i use to think i was somewhat of a loner and that i need a good bit of alone time. That is not quite as true as i thought. I need to be around people a lot more than i would have thought

* i hate being told what to do, can be very stubborn, and i don't always listen as much as i should.

* i question everything

* i use to plan everything and hated the unknown, now i don't plan and i'm kinda loving the unknown

* i'm sarcastic and should learn when it needs to be turned down

* i'm so scared of being hurt, i have built walls around me

* i'm a complete nerd but thats totally cool :)